An Adult Story

I have been dating the same guy for a year now and although I am ready to make a commitment he is not. My boyfriend Mike is a really sweet, nice guy but for some reason he will not make that next step in our relationship. Sometimes it really hurts me that we are stuck in this place of indecision and other times I try to be patient and understand him. I have heard that in every relationship one person will love the other more and I am afraid that in mine I am the one who loves more. Mike is my first love so of course I love him very much, as for him he has been dating for a long time and he has had many girlfriends.

I really wish there was something I could do to help Mike love me more. I try to do everything that he wants to do and I make it a point to put him first always. Yes this does not seem to be enough for him to want to marry me. He says that we are fine as we are that we don't need to get married to prove that we love each other. If I didn't know any better I would think that he was married, this is the excuse that I know married men give their girlfriends.

So no matter what I do I guess I can't make Mike marry me or love me more. If I love him I will have to keep dating him and hope that in time he will change his mind. I am afraid of how long it will take him to do this though. Maybe if Icould geta stroke of genius and figure out how to change him but I don't think that will happen. I just can't stand the thought of dating someone else and losing the whole year that I have been with Mike. I want all of this time that I have been with him to count for something.

I guess I will stick it out for another 6 months. If in that time Mike is not ready to commit then I will have to walk away. I can't waste my entire life waiting for him and 6 months should be enough to find out where he really stands. If he loves me he will propose and if he does not I will have to start brand new.